2005-09-03 - 2:52 p.m.

i just read nicim's love poem and here i sit crying like a baby. At first i think yes i've loved like that but never been loved like that.. and then i realize what that means for me... it means ... no, ive never felt love like that.
im 50. which probably means i never will. and me who i thought was ok with this being single.. who likes being single for the first time in 30 years. who feels finally content alone.. am only lying to myself, to keep the pain at bay.

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