2007-08-28 - 2:43 PM

i went back into therapy again at the first of the year. panic attacks were overwhelming me and holding me in place. that helped a lot and i was feeling better when my mamaw passed away. not easy but at least navigable. oh the other side of it and i feel like i am climbing out once again. this Friday i am having an incisional hernia repaired. surgery. seems its always some damn something isn't it. i pray this is my last one for a long time. i miss my mountain trail hiking. its been years since i have been able to do that. i want it back.. i will get it back. can i stand up and say fuck yes with that. ha
deep breaths.. freedom smells good.

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