2006-10-19 - 2:16 PM

a lot of things on my mind this morning.

last night and this morning i spent time going over the election candidates and issues coming up for Nov 7th. i have an absentee ballot to fill out. i try to be informed and not pay any attention to trash ads. i loath them, wish they would not even allow them. i usually go to websites and read background, issues and voting record. i never vote a straight party, though I'm a registered republican, believe that or not... i keep thinking I'm going to change it.. but i never bother.

there is an amendment 44 here to legalize possession of an ounce for anyone over 21. i don't have any illusions it will pass.. but one can hope and there are a couple of amendments concerning gays.. an amendment to make marriage only between men and women. probably on the ballet due to all the religious organizations here and a separate one to legalize domestic partnerships. it breaks my heart the way this country treats gay rights. i don't know if in this conservative state if these will go the way i'd like to see, but i do feel i have to add my voice to it anyway.

also elections for the Governor, congress seat and some state offices, judges and county offices.. so like i said i don't like to vote ignorant.. so it takes time to research it all. peeling through the bullshit. so i finally finished doing all that... i will probably mail it in on Monday. i prefer to not stand in line in the cold, though i have done that before. its much nicer to do it from home in the quiet so i can think and take my time to analyze how i feel about things.

talked to my son last night... he hopes to get in the work study program at college. he signed up long ago on the list.. but is going to go down and be a pest till they give him something.

another rejection letter came today about my poetry. even Sylvia Plath received many rejections during her life.

one biography says:
"These successes in publication, however, came after much hard work and persistence in submitting her writing to numerous periodicals. Time after time the rejection slips would come--sometimes causing Plath to doubt her abilities"

so i don't care so much about the rejections i receive. i will persist and continue to write, in fact i need to write more.. and about more things that i care about. sometimes i just get caught up in the thing that inspires me the most at the time. but i need to let out my passion more about the other things in my mind.

there are so many things i feel passionate about .. god and mercy
love and forgiveness.. murder of the innocent ... genocide... slavery..
purity of heart and sexualization ...
does it say something that spell ck does not even know the word sexualization?

... can words change anything....
....can one vote change anything...
who knows...
but we can not be silent.
if we are then
curse us all

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